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Monday 30 March 2020

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 I looked up, “Oh no.” I groaned. There was a tailback of traffic as far as the eye could see.
Dad patted my knee, “It’ll be fine, son. I know a short-cut.”
Well they were famous last words... Dad turned off and headed in the completely wrong direction. I looked around at the unfamiliar streets, “Where are we going, Dad?” I asked in mild panic.
“Your father knows these streets like the back of his hand…” Mum piped up proudly from the back seat.
I snorted as we passed a road sign, “Then why are we headed for Birmingham, right now?” I muttered. Seriously? Asking for help from Dad was sometimes a real challenge.
He grinned and patted my knee reassuringly, “I’ll loop back on the ring road, son. Don’t worry.”
El Paso

“Oh, my God.” I muttered as I shut the bedroom window. “Could they be more obvious?”
San Antonio and Seth were definitely getting more and more brazen. I was surprised they hadn’t been caught before now.
It was a stifling twenty-five degrees out there, which was surprising, since it was almost the end of September, and I preferred to have the windows shut with the air-con cranked up to max but Mum wasn’t a great fan of me spending all day and all night in my room and had come upstairs to ‘air’ the house.
She appeared in my bedroom doorway, almost giving me a heart attack. Usually she left me well alone… “Open that window and let some fresh air in!” she said, nodding to my window.
I bit my lip. If I opened the window, it would be all over for San Antonio and Seth – and they’d only just sorted everything out. There was just no way…
“I will in a bit.” I said, “I’ve just got the temperature in here perfect.”
Mum was in a bit of a mood, “Rubbish!” she said, marching towards my window, “I’ll do it myself!
Holy shit! She had hearing like a hawk. If she opened that window, San Antonio might as well kiss goodbye to his balls – because she’d be straight down the stairs and around to the treehouse to rip them off… “No!” I shouted, leaping off my bed and standing in front of her, “I said I’d do it. Just give me a minute!”
Maybe I’d been too hasty, or maybe Mum was having a Miss Marple moment, but she totally smelled a rat. “What are you hiding?” she asked suspiciously.
I blinked, “Nothing.” I replied, trying to look all innocent. It wasn’t me hiding anything. No doubt Seth was currently hiding the sausage but I didn’t really want to think about that right now, or ever, actually…
Mum narrowed her eyes, “Out of the way.” She demanded.
I sincerely hoped they’d finished and were now totally blissed out on each other and staring at the ceiling talking shit like they always did…
No such luck. As soon as the window was open, I could hear San Antonio and Seth as loud as anything...
Mum spun around and glared at me, “How long have you known this was going on?” she asked.
I shrugged, “I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I mumbled, “What’s going on?”
She came over to me and leaned down menacingly, “I’ll deal with you later.” She growled before sweeping out of my room.
I tried to send a text to San Antonio but there was no way he was going to have any inclination to read it. He was currently in the middle of what sounded like an amazing experience…



After Tiffany left, I lay on my bed for a good couple of hours just thinking about she’d said. I didn’t much care what she told anyone about me and El Paso. It wasn’t true… or at least, even if it was true that I felt more for him than I’d ever felt for her, it didn’t have to mean in a romantic way. There was no way I felt like that about him – we were just really good friends. She was just sore that I spent a lot of time with him and enjoyed his company.
I was just about to get ready for bed when another text came through.
I scrambled to a sitting position and fumbled for my phone.
All the tension I’d been feeling seemed to just drain away as I read the message.
“Are you still awake?”
I grinned and typed out an immediate reply, “Of course I am.”
“Good. Listen, can I call you instead of texting? I’m not a fan of getting writers’ cramp. I’ve got a better use for my right hand.”He sent an emoji of an aubergine and two laughing faces.
I shook my head. Chuckling to myself I sent back a smiley face. Seconds later, my screen lit up with a picture of El Paso pulling a silly face. I had no idea when he’d added that to my phone but it made me laugh all the same. “Hey, El.” I said.
His breathy voice came through loud and clear, "Lyle!" He exclaimed in a hushed whisper, "There's been a development."


Coming Soon...



“Well, well, well. What have we here?” 
I turned and my heart sank as I recognised the expression on the face of one of Blake’s teammates – it was the same expression as some of the guys in the audience when I was performing as Fallon Pheromone – lust – and with a heavy dose of alcohol coursing through his veins, I really didn’t want to be trying to appeal to his better nature.
Deciding that the best course of action was to be somewhere else, I slid off my stool and tried to get past him.
“Wow,” he murmured, looking me up and down and licking his lips, “Blake did good.”
“Thanks.” I said, “Excuse me.”
He shot an arm out and grabbed my wrist, “Not so fast, little lady.” He drawled, “I don’t believe we’ve been introduced. I’m Sheridan and I’m the best player on the squad.”
I wasn’t sure if he meant that he was good at football or was just a ladies man and I couldn’t have cared less. “Please let go of my arm.” I said, a feeling of revulsion going through me at his sweaty paw on my skin, “We don’t need an introduction. You saw me arrive with Blake – my boyfriend. Now please allow me to pass.”
He held his hands up in a surrender action, “I wasn’t trying to stop you pass, babe.” He said, “I was just admiring my good friend’s girl.” He chuckled, “Between you and me, I always thought he was a fag.”
My heart almost stopped, “Imagine that.” I managed to force out.
He grinned, “Yeah.” He said, “His career would be over.”
It was almost as if he was goading me. He knows. I thought in a bit of a panic. He knows who I am. “Well, lucky for Blake that he’s got me.”


“Hey, Dallas.”
I looked up and tried my best to arrange my face into a neutral expression. The guy that normally worked the weekend at the new pub I worked in was absolutely fucking gorgeous and he was working through the week for some reason, this week, too. Guess he must have some free time or something… “Uh, yeah?”
He smiled, “Can you check the barrel? Looks like it’s run out again.”
I nodded, trying my best to look as if I was totally in control of my emotions. I wasn’t let me tell you, I was completely besotted with him. I was so enamoured with him, in fact, that I could barely string a sentence together when I was around him. Something I’m sure he’d noticed. God, he must have thought I was a right dork…
I shot off to change the barrel, wondering if I’d ever be able to have a proper conversation with him, without getting all tongue-tied and pathetic.
As it happened, miracles did happen sometimes because when I got back from changing the barrel, he was still around – and incredibly, still intent on talking to me. How about that? The handsomest man I’d ever had the pleasure if meeting was, for all intents and purposes, chatting me up.

Sunday 15 March 2020

Behind the Scenes.... The story so far...

“Gerard?”
“Mmm?”
“Did you, uh, did you…” he was absently twisting a finger around and around one curl that was next to his ear and I was kind of fascinated with watching him, “oh, never mind.” He turned away.
No. You can’t turn away from me, I’m not done looking at you yet, “Did I what?” I asked.
He turned back and looked up at me with those bluer than blue eyes, “Did you freak out about the kiss as much as I did, earlier?” He’d gone so red it had reached the tips of his ears, which was endearingly cute, to say the least.
I laughed with relief that it wasn’t just me who was getting freaked out, “Yeah.” I admitted, “I really did – it was uh, kind of intense.”
“Is that why you left?” he whispered, looking so mortified with himself that I felt guilty for leaving, now. It had been an intensely intimate and personal moment for both of us and I’d handled it really badly.
To be fair, I’d totally freaked out at the way it had made me feel. I’d never reacted like that to anyone before, never mind another man. Okay, so I’d been following his career with quite a lot of interest, but I’d been quite convinced that my interest in him was kind of second-hand and was really only down to Gina’s ravings about how beautiful he was and how talented.
The more I thought about it though, the more I was beginning to realise that okay, my interest had been piqued by Gina, there was no doubting that – but all the saved clips of his interviews and gifs of his movies were entirely down to me. I’d been quietly obsessing over him for months… How had I not realised?
I nodded. I really didn’t want to start explaining myself but thankfully he didn’t seem to need that either.
He smiled, “Thank God.” He said, “I panicked so much I called my friend. She said she thought I was gay…” 
I stared at him, “What did you just say?” I asked. Please God. Tell me I misheard him…
He went bright red, “She thinks I’m gay.” He said, “She knows I’ve always admired you…” his breathing was quickening as he spoke.
My jaw dropped. This was becoming kind of stressful. I thought he had a girlfriend! In fact, I knew he did. Gina never stopped going on about his girlfriend. So, who the hell was this friend he was calling? Shouldn’t he be calling his girlfriend?  I felt old all of a sudden. These young kids these days – they just didn’t have relationships anymore. It was all blurred lines between best friends and lovers… “Is working with me going to be a problem for you?” I asked. Holy shit. This was getting worse by the minute.
He shook his head, “Oh, my God, no. No!” he insisted, “I’m a professional! I can handle this, I promise.”
I nodded. I was glad that one of us could because I was really beginning to think that I couldn’t… “I’ll uh, I’ll help you in any way I can.” I could step up and be a professional too. I could
He nodded, “Thank you – that means a lot. Would you do me a massive favour then and kiss me again?”
 What the hell was I supposed to do now?
I turned to him to tell him that I didn’t think that was such a good idea right now but he lunged across the bed at me and covered my surprised mouth with his own.
I found myself responding to him almost immediately. Hell, he was good at this kissing lark. I’d never been all that into it before, but now... Jesus, I felt as if I could kiss him all damned night and still not tire of it. Making out with him through this movie was going to be easy – it was going to be when the movie ended that I was going to find it hard. Going back to London, to Gina – who I loved but had never really felt passionately about, while Jason, who was beginning to make me question my whole life so far, went back to New York…
I pulled away, “This isn’t the best idea, Jason.” I said. Because I’m enjoying your kisses too damned much. They’re doing stuff to me that I don’t recognise… “We really need to get some sleep, it’s going to be long day tomorrow.” Okay, so it was an excuse. I just didn’t understand what was happening to me. 
He nodded, his beautiful eyes looking up at me sleepily, “You’re right.” He said, “But I needed to get my head straight. Thanks for putting up with me.”
Putting up with him? Hell, if this was putting up with someone, I’d take it over anything else for as long as I lived. For the first time in my life, I felt comfortable with the way I felt – albeit in a really uncomfortable way. His kisses had done something to me. They’d switched something on in me that hadn’t been there before. What I was going to do with that difference however, was something I hadn’t really worked out, yet…
“Right,” I said, “I’ll uh, I’ll turn over, then.”
He nodded, “Thanks again, Gerard.” He said softly, “I know I’m a big old pain in the ass.”
I grinned, “You’re fine.” I said, “Just fine.”

Out Now!


I tried to recall the events of the previous evening. I vaguely recalled drinking a little too much whisky and then I remembered staggering off to bed after feeling a little foolish for blurting out that he was hot when all I’d meant to do was think it to myself.
Only I clearly didn’t make it to my bed... I was very definitely in Jermaine’s. I pulled the covers back and looked down. Phew. Still wearing my boxers – so nothing too naughty could have happened between us. Maybe I should check his too...
I turned over and jumped. His beautiful green eyes were staring into mine and he had a little smile on his lips, “What are you doing?” he whispered.
“Just checking something.” I whispered back. Leaning up on my elbow, I bit my lip and looked him in the eye cautiously, “Please tell me I didn’t make a horribly inappropriate move on you last night?” I asked him.
He smiled and shook his head, “You didn’t make a horribly inappropriate move on me – don’t worry.”
I sagged back down on the mattress, “Oh, thank God.” I breathed.
He frowned as he looked at me, a slightly hurt look on his beautiful face, “Jeez,” He murmured, “Am I that bad?”
I could have cut my tongue out of my mouth with a spoon for making him feel bad about himself. I shook my head emphatically, “Lord, no.” I said, “You’re amazing. By far the nicest guy I’ve ever met.”
His frown turned to a scowl. “Gee, thanks.” He said sarcastically, “I just love being everyone’s nice guy.”
I was making a total hash of everything, which was something I was prone to do when I was nervous. And I was feeling very nervous right now – being this close to him and in a bed, I was getting a woody just looking at him and that could only lead us both into trouble... “I-I’m r-really sorry,” I stammered, “I’m awkward in real life. I might come across on the b-big screen as this really well put t-together, h-happening guy that’s got a girl in every p-port – which obviously I h-haven’t since I realised I was g-gay even before I started d-dating – and a m-million followers on Twitter means absolutely nothing, l-let me tell you. I suck at relationships. I suck at even k-keeping in touch with the p-people I really love. I’m a disaster and you’ll be well rid of me when I g-go.” All of that came out in a bit of a rush.
He smiled and shook his head, “Shut up Nate.” He said and lowered his face to mine and planted a firm kiss on my lips. Pulling away he looked at me, “I’m going to go and brush my teeth – and so are you,” he rolled off the bed and stood up, “and then we’re going to try that kiss again – properly with tongues and everything.” I blinked at his forthrightness. “And then I’ll let you know if you suck at stuff.”

Out Now!


"I really like you, Eden. Do you think we can be friends?"
I smiled, “Of course.” I said, “I feel like we’re already friends and I’m going to be here for a couple of weeks, while the media storm dies down a little. Hopefully the government will make a hash of something and take the heat off me for a while.”
Fabien laughed, “You’ll be back for the weekend, then.” He said, “I hear they’re always making a hash of everything.” 
I chuckled, “That’s politicians for you.” I agreed. Biting my lip, I decided to be brave, “You can stay with me, if you want to.” My heart was in my mouth. What the hell had come over me? I’d never been so bold before in my life! “I could do with the company.”
Fabien blinked, “Really?” He asked.
I nodded, “Sure.” I agreed.
“I will pay you something towards the rent – you can’t be staying here for free and I do not wish to sponge off you.”
I smiled, “Fine.” I said, “You can buy me dinner tonight.”
Fabien’s smile widened, “Take you out for dinner?” he asked, “That sounds like a date.”
I could feel my face heating up, “No, no.” I said hurriedly, “Just two friends going out for dinner.”
His smile didn’t move, his eyes twinkled, “Spoilsport.” He said, “I wanted to look like the luckiest man on the planet.”
I raised an eyebrow, “Uh?” I asked.
He rolled his eyes, “Have you seen you?” he asked, “Any guy would be crazy not to want to go on a date with you.”
I blushed, “Stop it.” I muttered, “You’re embarrassing me.”
He touched my arm, “I’m not trying to embarrass you. I’m trying to let you know how much I like you.”
I blinked, “Really?” I asked, “You like me…? Like, really like me, like that, like me?”
He laughed, “Yes.” He said, “Like I want to kiss you and I can’t stop watching your mouth because it’s fascinating, like you.”
Wow. “I think I like you like that, too.” I said. I bit my lip and looked up at him from under my eyelashes, willing him to understand, “But I’m not sure I can go there, yet. Can you be patient with me?”
He nodded, “Of course.” He said, “But I really would like to kiss you on our date.”
I smiled as butterflies took off inside me for about the tenth time, “Let’s just see how it goes.” I said. I was pretty sure I’d want to kiss him by the end of our date, too.

Coming Soon!

Friday 6 March 2020

#ifnotmewho

It hurt.
It hurt a lot.
And I had absolutely no idea why.
All I knew was that I’d had what felt like very rough sex the night before and I was pretty sure it wasn’t consensual, since I didn’t do what I felt like I’d done – or rather, what I’d taken…
But who the hell had it been? I mean, don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t squeaky clean. I’d had one-night stands before and I’d woken up not knowing where I was before, but that was nothing like this. I was scared because I just couldn’t remember how the hell I’d managed to end up here in this hotel room with absolutely no recollection of how I got here. 
I could remember the first part of the evening but I didn’t remember anything after the audition with Patrick Woods.
My blood ran cold. No. No way...


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